never have time
lifes so busy that i cant really keep up with updating my bloggggyyyyy haha
another post
lol times gone by so fast this year.. cant believe i have abondoned online for so long. works ok. ummmm im getting ready to leave the current town im in. its preety cool since i hate this place… im moving close to my home town in good ol california. i love it there and i am very excited. and that little friends with benefits guy…. haha hes great. im glad i stumbled apon him… im glad im trying to avoid the whole attachment thing. cause im leaving mid june. and it would be foolish of me to get all crazy over him then just book it out of town. soo yeah thats where im at at this point in my life.. just living and enjoying what little time i have left in this heptic town :D
love chris
done
lol long distance boyfriend.. lol done :D … never really got to go see him.. could have, but didnt.. instead.. i hooked up with another guy who was preety hot.. i guess this doesnt make me sound to good.. but im happier than ever. i like to have a good friend with benefits, kinda rare to find one your actually attracted too.. i feel kinda slutty.. especially since i havnt really hooked up with allot of guys before.. but i guess its all in the experience of exploring this new side of me.. never thought i would enjoy being intimate with a guy this much. preety gay in my book.. but what can ya do? a mind works on its own somtimes.. you cant change pre-programmed stuff soo why even try, im gonna take it for all its worth.. hopefull it will all become more clear one day, mabey then ill have the balls to actually tell people about it.. but untill then.. ill just stay stuffed in the closet untill i really know.
Well, I try not to think about the general public since I have no idea what the general public is and I don’t think anybody does.
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| — | Elliott Smith |
yeah
today i watched sad movies all day, somtimes i wish i was in them, so i can feel the loss, love , and happiness.. but then again i remember i feel that everyday. its easy to look over day to day things. and i somtimes feel like my life is a movie, a boring movie, but a movie non the less. umm i want to get going on somthing, just dont know what it is yet, mabey i will find somthing to do besides work and play my computer.. hahaha anyways goodbye mr. journal… p.s i think i am gonna name my tumblr mr.laurence after a beautiful song by ryuichi sakamoto, good composer u should check him out if anyone reads this
Boyfriend huh?
Boyfriend, you are really annoying when you ignore me…. idk whats so hard about texting me or even calling me… how will this ever work if u cant even handle basic forms of communication… if sex is all u want then, i dont see this going to far… i want your mind not your body, your wallet in any case..
TALK TO ME!
